Life gets busy, so what else is new right? The boys are doing all the things you would expect 2 growing boys to do. They make me laugh, they make me cry, they make me be silly, they make me yell, they make me happy, they make me mad, they make me happy... ahhhh and that's all in one day!
Today was a rough one for Emileo though. The slightest change will go unnoticed or send him in to a spiral. Today was a spiral. I took a couple of days off of work so we can spend some of their spring vacation together, but going back to work today was not something he expected. And I do prepare him for the unexpected. I have to in order to help him get thru it and sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't. But I know it's something I have to do. So reminding him throughout the day is what I do. But today I got a call. Emileo is having a meltdown. And sometimes I can calm him over the phone, but today he was not having it. And it takes every fiber of my soul not to walk out of work and come running home to help him. And to help my mom, who is here dealing with the episodes. And my baby Diego sometimes has to wait in the shadows while this is played out. I apologized to him today telling him that I know today he was asked to be patient and wait while we helped Emileo. I also told him thank you for being a great little brother and understanding. It's hard for all of us and I want to make sure Diego knows that I appreciate him so that he doesn't ever resent his brother or feel cheated of having his time. Luckily the meltdowns are few and far between now, but when they happen they can be a dozie! Especially the older and stronger he gets! I've been going to an Autism Mixer. It's a meeting session with teachers and parents of autistic children. They are only during the school year so there is only one more. But they are very informative and have some great ideas. The one before last has some great techniques to help comfort the kids. I got some therapy ideas and they seem to help. But still there are just some times when nothing helps, and I just have to let him have his moments and just make sure he's safe and doesn't hurt himself or others. Think of it this way... when we have our moments, sometimes we can deal with the feeling and move on and sometimes we just have to act out a bit to fill better. Emileo has a hard time expressing how he feels so sometimes he just has to act out and instead of forcing him to contain himself and his feelings, I just have to let him let it out. How would you feel if someone forced you to contain your feeling and didn't let you express yourself.
Well, I hope that tomorrow he has a better day...for everyone :)
